I was sitting on the beach last night(my favorite passtime now) just looking back at my life and thinking about all that I have seen, experienced, achieved and learnt. And I realized Lucky, that the moments I remember the most in life are not the big things I set out to achieve in the first place- its not even things that you account for when preparing your resume, neither is it things you can explain to others, these moments are just there- there to be experienced, to be felt and to be remembered. You remember these moments whenever you feel low, feel depressed, feel that you are completely useless, a waste of 80 kilos of mass- and then- you all of a sudden feel- that you aint that useless afterall.
The first moment that came to my mind was the first time I stole mangoes at the age of 10. There was this deserted school close to where I lived and 4 of us decided that we are going to slip across the guard to climb the mango tree and get hold of a few mangoes. We did successfully manage to escape the eye of the guard- but then when we got to the Mango tree- my conscience started telling me- "NO STEALING-REMEMBER WHAT MUMMY SAID ABOUT THIEFS AND HONESTY???". Another guy did run away - probably his conscience got the better of him. But I dont know what happened to me- I for the first time in my life(the life I remember that is)I did something that my parents warned me against doing. But I went ahead with it climbed the Mango tree and after about 10 minutes of effort , we got the mangoes. I bit into one of the mangoes - it was bitter- really bitter and I nearly spit it out-when- the taste all of a sudden turned into sweetness-the sweetness of achievement- sweetness that overcame the bitterness, and it was ecstatic- my god Lucky- never has any mango ever tasted so sweet ever again. I'd never forget that moment.
The second was another moment of triumph in my life- although nothing worth mentioning in my resume- but I'd never forget that as well. This was when I was in Class 5. We were each supposed to prepare a story to tell to the class-and we had a weeks' time to do so- this was less of an assignment and more of a test of "How many students are obedient enough to listen to me" on the english teachers' part(I dont remember her name now). I obviously screwed up- dint prepare anything and went to school(Actually entirely forgot about the whole thing). And then everybody in class seemed to have prepared something or the other- and I was thinking- 'I'm screwed man'- even bloody Mohan Shankar(Rank 36 out of 36 students in the class) had prepared a story and flashed his piece of paper to me. And then it started- one by one each of the kids started telling stories- everyone reading out from a piece of paper- most of the stories were lame- even by 5th class standards- even Sandhya- the topper told a really lame story about her going to the market with her grandmother- to which the teacher was like- 'Thats lovely Sandhya'- and I was like- 'Come one guys- grow up- you are no longer in 2nd standard'. Then came my turn(Roll number 32- my name being with S- just four guys after me). I had no clue- about what I had to do or say- I was petrified- terrified- I was nearly about to pee in my pants(actually I later on thought I could have just pee-ed in my pants and escaped- it would have been less embarassing). But then from somewhere an idea struck me-I dont know if I can call it divine intervention or something- I thought- why not just repeat one of the stories my Grandmom(my mom's mom) told me?? Add masala to it- twists and turns- and make it a bit more interesting- see what happens. I went up to the teachers desk and I said-"I remember the story so I dont need to refer to my paper"- to which the teacher said- "Fine!! Go Ahead". And then I narrated this story about how a thief broke into my grandmoms' house a few decades back( i dont know when it was or it if it even actually hapened). I added a few twists- typical bollywood stlye and for a change the sleepy class was now turning into a curious one wanting to know what happened- I was stopped about 5 times in between to clarify doubts- about what the thief looked like and how exactly he broke the door.At the end of the story- there was silence for a few seconds- and then our beloved english teacher stood up and started clapping, everyone else followed suite and for the first time in my life Lucky- I felt special, different- and I was beaming with a big smile on my face. The teacher then took me to other sections and also the staff room to narrate the story again. I realized two things that day Lucky- one- that everyone has something special about him/her- you just have to realize what it is and the second- that I'm a bloody good story teller!!!! Although I never tried telling stories after that in my life- but I might again!!!!
The third moment Lucky is the one where I got to see Aishwarya Rai-Yess!! I did manage to get a glimpse of her. There was this movie of hers' that was being shot in Bangalore and I came to know of it through a friend of mine and I decided that this was it- I had to see her. I slipped out of home on a Sunday morning lying that I was going to a friends place at 6 in the morning. And Vishal and me reached the site. It was bloody crowded- it seemed like the entire city had landed up there to get a glimpse of Aishwarya Rai. There were not less than ten thousand people and we were two 11 year old kids who were barely even visible in the crowd- it seemed more like two dwarfs in a crowd of giants. But then it kind of worked to our advantage where we managed to sneak through the crowd to the front where there was a rope tied to prevent people from getting in. Our eyes were searching for an angelic beauty- there were lots of good looking girls(the dancers!!) but no sight of Aishwarya. We waited and waited all day- we kept checking with people around us- and everyone was like 'Arre- abhi aati hi hogi!!!'.It had been 10 hours nearly- we were standing in the heat and sweating like crazy-no food- a lot of people had given up and left- and I was even worried about what I'd tell my parents about where I had been all day. But then at half past 5, she came- Aishwarya Rai came out of her trailer-cum-van in a white dress- she was a real person afterall. All the heat, frustration seemed to have just disappeared and I was staring at her like a kid at chocolates. Till then I wasnt convinced that a real person called Aishwarya Rai existed- or could probably exist- it seemed more like the figment of somebody's imaginaion- how could somebody so beautiful exist in the first place?? All posters were photoshopeed probably and all movies- an advanced form of 3d effect. But then all doubts were put to rest. She did some dance steps under the supervision of some female(the choreographer obviously)- her hands and body ware obviously real I thought. It felt really great Lucky- for some reason- it was another moment of achievement for me- nothing I can write in my resume again- but I felt really great and I still cherish that I did something this crazy at such a young age.
The reason I'm telling you all this crap Lucky, is that I have decided something- something really big- that I'm going to pursue for such special moments in my remaining lifetime- I feel I'd be more successful having 10 such moments in my lifetime than having all the money in the world!!!!
well said brother..can't agree with you more..enjoy life!
ReplyDeleteLucky is lucky to get such fundae...how about Lucy getting luckier by hearing some lighter stuff some time.
ReplyDeleteCome'on dude how can you miss the time when we gave u GPL so hard that quit giving GPLs to other ppl !! didnt u feel special then !
ReplyDeleteon a more serious note, u r right. what we have achieved can never be reflected from our resume. My biggest achievement is peeing from a bus running full speed on a highway...now where can i put that on my CV!!
@Olive- something light- very soon- couple of posts more of serious stuff
ReplyDelete@Akhi- lol...you actually did that???
hey, got a chance to go thru ur blog during my research... dis piece of writing is awesome..!! well described... and kept reminding me of my past days!
ReplyDeleteHey Pragyan.. I just happened to read a couple of your entries.. we do share somethings in common... Thanx for taking the time out to read it..
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